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Somebody save me
.. from my monotonous life. I wasn't able to post for the past few weeks for the reason that I didn't have anything to write about. I still don't have anything to write about. All these repetitive routines are making me dull, I can't even update my website. I really hope this long wait will pay out when the results of the NLE get released. Speaking of which.. I'm surprised but Mom and Dad are actually anticipating me not only to pass, but to rank in the top 10! Heck, I'm not even sure I'll make the quota and they expect me to make miracles. Sure they happen, but not on me neither on this situation. Of all people, I'm the one person who knows exactly what I can do and topping the boards isn't one of them. Anyway, it's not like I don't want to achieve such feat.. it's just that I never thought of it that way and all that matters to me is to pass so I can be an RN.
I haven't been able to return Kim's messages. I only managed to stretch out my savings for 2 whole months, and now I'm bankrupt and can't afford to load up my phone. Hope she won't take it negatively, now that it seems like she already likes me. I grieve
Today I bid my last goodbye to a friend. I'm still hurting and I don't know how soon will I get over it. Tears are not enough to numb the pain I feel with your loss.
When I have my own family in the future, I'll name one of my daughters Jo Christine. So that's what it is..
Slept in late last night. Really late. I was thinking a lot about Irene; what's the thing about her and why am I making a big deal out of it. Around 2 in the morning, my query was finally answered: it's the eyes. You know some people used to ask me if I'm half-chinese since the complexion of my skin is slightly yellowish. Jaundice is entirely different so don't even start. Anyway, I'd answer them I'm 1/4 chinese. If I remember it right, my Mom's grandfather was pure chinese, which makes him my great grandfather. Never met him though (God rest his soul). Then after that they would nod in acknowledegment, then say something about my eyes. Maybe they think my chinese roots is justified by my eyes. Yes, my eyes are narrow. But it's not of the feature of the mongoloid race since I have drooping eyelids. Sa tagalog, mapungay na mga mata. That's the only feature this girl and I share.. her eyes. And the reason why I'm even talking about her right now is because I'm attracted to her because of those eyes. I don't look good with it, but she does. I've seen her in person last June during the NLE.
She barely matches up with Kim, but still pretty. *sigh* |